I’m sure I’m not alone on here in struggling to get the right balance.
Trying to continue to get the day job done and support the kids to learn from home during the latest UK Lockdown is hard!
Week one, I really felt I was getting it all wrong. Anxiety in all directions. I was being loud and grumpy with my family and failing to help the kids learn. I was distracted and stressed at work.
I was doing late nights desperately clinging on to continuing my own personal development. Then being tired and grumpy the next day.
I has an awfully 1-2-1 with my manager. An unusual episode for me.
I was, not OK.
I spoke to my friends at work and my tester friends. I’ve spoken to my kids, I’ve spoken to my wife.
This week has started better. I’ve accepted I won’t be able to “do all the things well” and I’ve done what I can to reduce scope and sequence expectations. I made better progress at work, I made times for the kids.
I gave apologies to my friends and didn’t goto my usual Monday night D&D. This gave me time to eat tea with the family and bake cookies with the kids after.
I had a good chat with my Mum, who is in a childcare bubble with us and was able to offer some support from next week. Thanks Mum!
Things are still not OK, I’m not OK. But I’m better then I was last week and I’m slowly starting to take control of what I can. As such I’m feeling less out of control.
Thanks for listening, here is a medal for making it this far.