Welcome, and congratulations! What I can tell you is that you’re definitely not alone in your situation. I commented about this on another post recently: What is a common challenge faced by new testers? - #3 by cassandrahl
At the moment, I would advise keeping an open mind and getting information from lots of different sources. I’m a big fan of MoT content, but I’m able to appreciate and challenge it more because of content I’ve consumed from other sources as well. Don’t just take what’s given to you - challenge ideas, ask “stupid” questions, share your thoughts. Sadly, testing Twitter isn’t really a thing anymore. That used to be a great place to engage with other testers and learn a lot quickly.
That’s also a thing - there’s a lot to learn! Try to get used to only knowing a little about certain topics and coming back to them later. Try to focus on what will help you in the short to medium term, rather than trying to learn about everything all at once.